:(

mama papa, i love you and i cant live without you guys. 

im sorry for being too busy with my life

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN I LOVE EVERYTHING

still grateful

Dalam dunia ni manusia  memang tak pernah puas dan bersyukur dengan apa yang diorang dapat. Ada je yang tak cukup. Lepas tu? Apa yang kita akan buat? blame diri sendiri? blame orang lain? blame takdir or nasib? Well, im one of the ungrateful human. This is truly a pathetic fact kan.

Well,

Life. there are so many stages that we have to pass before we reach the end.

Kita tak tau bila kita gagal. Bila kita akan Berjaya. Jenis dugaan macam mana yang akan datang or benda baik apa yang kita akan dapat. Banyak benda yang akan berlaku dalam hidup ni. depends la whether benda tu akan lead to positive  or negative. This is all about our self.

Sometimes, we can choose what kind of way we want. What kind of path we’re goin or what kind of life we want to live in. Easy to put it in word but yeah, what about the things that really out of our list? We don’t have the chance to choose anything that we want or we please from the start.  

since the beginning. I wish better but I keep on falling L

World

·         Too many risk to be hold

·         Too many barriers to succeed

·         Too many games

·         Too many drama

·         Too many kind of life

·         Too many responsibilities to be done

·         TOO MANY THIS AND THAT

In one word

It is a rules of life that must be followed strictly

It’s a fact. As human memang kita kena ikut semua rules yang ada sampai kita kembali kepada yang MENCIPTA. This all about living this world. In order to complete the rules, we have to be strong.

We maybe cant choose but we definitely can change. my problem is nothing to be compared with other. i wont stop learning. i wont stop dreaming. i wont stop loving. 

Mistake are painful when they happen, but years later collection of mistakes will call as experience which leads to success.

Insyaallah.

ya allah, 

thank you for giving me my precious people to always be with me

thank you for giving me this heart, to love and be love :) i wont stop treasure it. 

speechless

without a single guilt. you removed it just like that. 

.

TERKILAN

i'll survive

im sorry. thank you. from now on, we never know each other. so everything is end. no more.

cinta

ALHAMDULILLAH

hanya padamu aku bersujud YA ALLAH S.W.T

a guy

i cant bring myself to act anymore. just so you know, you did it. it was a great game of you. im backing off. you win. 

screw everything

finally its happened .

thesecretpain

no ones know when we were actually cry

im tired

they dont get my limits.

this is how life work.

im just nobody. nothing special.

dont expect too much because you might be dissapointed.

this is what you guys want me to do.

and the worse thing is.

I CANT.

I REALLY CANT.

sorry for letting you guys down.

sorry because im not created to be the best.

this is not my route.

this is not my ability.

this is not what i want or what i like.

this is not me.

please let me breath on my own.

complicated, but i still love you girl

So I guess, this is how we end up after a quite sometimes together. We don’t match each other don’t we? I got my own way and so do you. im sorry cz im not like you. ima bad girl and u're the good ones. ya i know. tell you what, im really really really tired to have this little fight with you. swear to god, please enough. i just wanna do what i want. no matter what, i still got my own right to have my own space and life. what else to say, im tired to keep everything inside and i know same goes to you. im sorry, im sorry and im sorry. i hav my bad sides and so do you. we know each other too well right. 

im sorry izham

no matter what, you are so important to me ! please take note of that. i tak sengaja okay. i got too busy sampai u terasa hati. im sorry please :'(

i dont want this

im starting to get jealous nowadays. the best part is, its fucking hurt. sounds funny right. well, it is normal for human to hav that kind of feeling. the problem is, i just dont like it, i hate it. its pathetic to feel that way.

back to where im still cool, haha! durr, what i was trying to say is back when im still cool about everything as in i dont get jealous easily. open minded. confident and so all. fuhh. i just dont really know how to describe this. shit! you guys get what i mean right. especially girls out there. haha! (why girls?) ignoreeee

hmmh, who's to blame? no ones right. this is life. if there is no jealousy, then there will be no thrill in life. haha! can that be accepted? OMG ka! that is LAME ASS! i dont know what im writing about. but one thing, i get mad everytime i think about this. mad like fucking mad, dissapointed, frust and awful. tak best gilaa! trust me. haihh.

so ka, what to do? cant you just be cool? haha! HOW I WISHHHHHH! pfft. what im sure about, i dont wanna care anymore. i dont wanna get jealous. i wanna be cool. i dont wanna let my low self esteem come back. NO NO NO!

this is not what im suppose to write. there's another. but for now. this is it. it is for my own satisfaction. i gerammmm! its like, eeee. geram gilaaa! get it?

congratulations pretty girls. you guys are the best. haha :) im funny i guess

soon okay?

hahahaha !

thanks sebab loyal baca blog i

COMEL GILA OKAY!

sorry tau

kita sangat takde masa

walaupun

banyak sangat nak tulis pasal awak :)

heee !

so,

awak kena la tunggu for the next post 

eh eh eh

WINKS

love you izham :)

N . A

Girl, u got nothing to do with him anymore. Please stop it. It’s killing me. He might return to you one day if he’s really meant for you. For now, just respect me. What do you expect? How should I feel? He’s no longer yours. Face it girl. He’s mine now. Learn from your past mistake. Go away. How can I be cool when I know that you are still hoping for him? I’m just a girl, same like you. So please.

RESPECT ME AND GO AWAY 

reminder !

saya ni kadang kadang loud

kadang kadang suka cakap

suka nyanyi

gila sangat

excited

suka kucing

suka sayang orang lain

suka kalau dapat buat orang happy

suka macam macam lah !

AKAN TETAPI,

saya tak perfect

saya tahu tak semua akan suka

tak semua boleh sabar

tak semua boleh tahan

lepas tu,

rasa annoying lah

menyampah lah

sakit hati lah

apa apa lah

HAIHHH :(

saya minta maaf okay?

saya tak sengaja sakit kan hati orang

tak sengaja buat orang tak suka saya

tak sengaja nak menjawab or membalas perbuatan korang

betul ni,

mintak maaf banyak banyak !

so now, saya nak mintak tolong ni,

kalau tak suka saya

jangan pretend jadi baik 

and belakang belakang

macam 

DEVIL !

okay?

please?

tolong?

K BYE ! SEKIAN TERIMA KASIH !

hey lovely !

its me and you again ! heee

i love you

and

will

always be ! i promise :)

best friend forever ! THANK YOUUU !

forgive me

do not blame us for changed girl. u're the one who did. we miss the old you. yes we did. its not like we're being selfish or what. we just want you to realize it. for you maybe its a good best damn thing happen to you, but not for us. and im sorry. I've tried to be understanding. but you yourself, you make things become awkward. even with me? why is that? yes i miss you. this is life. people come and go. as for me, thank you. you used to be so special sayang. you won my heart once. im truly sorry for this. but everyone keep saying a bad things about it and me itself, admitting that you've changed. have fun.

-sincerely from me, zulaikha

MMU CROWD , YOU AND ESPECIALLY HIM ( IZHAM AZIZI )

First of all, thank you sangat sangat nak cakap cause korang dah banyak gila tolong i and i pun da banyak gila kali susah kan korang. (tahu tu) J

Sometimes tolong hantar and tolong jemput. Ishh. Thanks taw. I owe u guys very big times. Hope korang takkan jumpa and baca entry ni cause nanti mesti i rasa macam MALU GILA! HAHA! so, better dont.

And seriously, thanks yang tersangat thanks. Sebab korang la i rasa i dapat jumpa izham selalu. Tapi in a way, terasa segan and malu jugak dengan korang sebab dah banyak sangat susah kan dengan macam macam hal. Jangan ambik hati and yeah, sorry okay?

And onemore thing. sorry if korang rasa korang kena selalu sangat tengok muka i bila i dengan izham. Heee J i tahu maybe certain macam rimas. Tapi what to do, we are so in love. Well, just remember yang i sangat suka berkawan dengan korang okay. I won’t forget you guys

And izham, OMG OMG OMG! Tak tau nak cakap mcm mana. U treat me like a princess. U should know that. I love you and i hope we will get through everythg till the end. Thanks for everything that you’ve done for me J I LOVE YOU!

Joy, fan, Zamir, acap, wan, fakhri afifi, syapik, haziq khair, ijat, adib, afiq, abah, hafriz , min J

YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST ! THANKS

manusia biasa

bila everything yang kita buat semua nya jadi tak kena. bila apa yang kita harap kan tak berlaku langsung. bila orang claim yang dia sakit sebab kita. bila kita tak sedar yang sebenarnya kita dah buat orang sakit hati. bila orang blame kita. bila orang tak reti jaga hati kita. bila orang tak fikir langsung pasal diri kita and bila orang tak tahu yang dia amat lah penting untuk diri kita.

apa nak buat?

saya ada hati jugak. ada perasaan. ada mood yang tertentu. saya tak sempurna. saya bukan magician. saya tak sedar apa salah saya. saya tak sedar apa yang saya dah buat. saya memang tak berniat nak buat orang sakit hati. saya tak tahu yang diri saya ni memang super annoying and psycho. saya tak tahu

tapi,

saya ada cara saya sendiri nak buat orang lain happy. saya nak tengok diorang happy bila ada saya. saya nak diorang rasa yang saya ni penting. saya nak orang sayang saya macam mana saya sayang dia. saya taknak orang rasa yang saya ni useless. saya sakitkan hati orang lain. saya mintak maaf.

and saya tahu,

hobi saya mintak maaf je all the time kan. tapi apa nak buat. itu je yang mampu saya buat. saya tahu saya macam mana. perangai saya teruk. kadang kadang bising gila. kadang kadang moody. kadang kadang diam. kadang kadang emosi.

pfft,

minta maaf okay. saya memang tak berniat langsung nak buat orang benci saya. peace yaww

-asalamualaikum

ka ka ka

I might lose everything that I've had if I keep being like this 

im wrong

i tend to hurt those i love

i didn't mean it

and

im end up regret it

im sorry people

i  mean it

im sorry :(

i miss you

i want her

i really do 

:(

-iloveyoubestfrnds

wakeup

sometimes, i really cant stand your attitude 

how?

i don't want to hurt you guys

please

i love you guys like so much okay

i do care about you, you, you and you

i wanna make everyone happy

but

please

do understand me

is it wrong if i also want to be loved and care

i just dont know what else should i do

i wanna be with you and accompany you

but yes

i also wanna be with him like so badly

it is something that i cant explain to you guys

if you guys feel so left out

its not true at all 

i do care about our friendship

i do

:)

sorry

the end

regret

now everything is just too late

he made this

I

LOVE

YOU

MORE MORE AND MORE ! HEHEEEE

THIS IS WHY YOU ARE SO ADDICTED IZHAM AZIZI, AWAK COMEL SANGAT! :)

fever

i got flu, im dizzy like hell, and im freezing. pfft. 

what else should i do?

 i cant stand any longer.

but wait, not that im that bad lah, 

its just my situation now

baring all the time

bored

surrounded by tissue

hungry

and

I WANT FRESH AIR ! 

how how how !

can someone please kidnap me from this room! 

i want my family !

i wanna go out and play !

i wanna laugh !

i wanna jump !

i wanna eat icecream !

and the most important thing

HAHA!

i want my boyfriend here by my side !

durr !

PITY ME 

sunshine

a boy who truly loves you will never let you go no matter how hard your situation is. so please do not let me go easily because i do love you so much and being loved by someone is the most wonderful things that happen to me

-xoxo

nyawa saya

dear my heart, be happy please. i just cant stand seeing you like that. no matter how hard your problem is, you still got us. i love you so much. no more crying. you are my life and always be. do not give up. you are strong and i know that. i wish i can take all your pain away. onething, you are once said that life will never be so easy as we wish. right? so please, ALLAH loves you and so thats why HE's giving you a big test in your life. ka love you so much and i'll support you no matter what your decision is. still, i love YOU and YOU !

im sorry

i always wanted to make you happy but in the end, it didn't work at all. why? its okay if im the only one that get hurt, but why it must be you? why you? i didn't ask for it, i hate it and i dnt want it to happen. i am so so so sorry sayang. ima bad person. im sorry fr my imperfection. how i wish i can fix it. sorry for hurting you. sorry

this is true indeed

it's sad seeing a person you used to be close with, acting like total strangers. after all, i'm just part of his or her destination. please kindly throw and erase all the memories away or you'll regret it

 

- tan sri najiah

siapa kata?

orang kata kalau nak kurus kena exercise. yang aku ni jalan kaki, peluh lagi, lepas tu turun naik tangga batu cave asal tak kurus kurus ha. come on lah! berusaha gila kot. yang korang pulak, amboi amboi amboi. seronok je cakap aku dah gemuk eh. pfft! please lah, tak suka okay. nak buat macam mana kalau dah bahagia sangat kan. humm. maybe aku boleh lupa kan nak badan macam ala ala model kan. haihh sedih! 

attention people

sila bagi kata perangsang yang membahagia kan boleh? 

komen korang sumpah la buat aku down weh! adoi :(

and 

mungkin jugak aku boleh beli sixe XL pulak kan lepas ni

UNTUNG LAH !

ya allah SWT

 " aku sentiasa mengharapkan hidayah daripada MU . aminnn aminn aminnn "

i will fall for a boy who will

- stand out in the rain with me

- cook with, or for me

- let me sing along to the radio

- keep suprising me

- do whatever i want on the lazy days

- remember the little things

- help me face my fears and comfort me

- start play-fights with me 

- write me post-it love letters

- always say whats on his mind

- let me wear his clothes

- shut me up with kisses

- treat me, sometimes, like a child

treat me, sometimes, as an adult

- love me back

GUESS IM SO LUCKY

AND YES, I ALREADY FOUND ONE !

i

LOVE

YOU

-thank you izham azizi

be yourself

get it right

What have I done
I wish I could run
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down
'Cuz my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just want to fix it somehow
But how many times will it take
Oh how many times will it take for me
To get it right
To get it right

Can I start again
With my faith shaken
'Cuz I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay
And face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/g/glee_cast/get_it_right.html ]
What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down
'Cuz my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just want to fix it somehow
But how many times will it take
But how many times will it take for me
To get it right

So I throw up my fist, throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah I sent out wish
Yeah I sent up a prayer
Then finally someone will see how much I care

What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down
Oh my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just want to fix it somehow
But how many times will it take

- i just love the lyric

promise me

" Ka, i want you to know that i love you so much. Not even L*** can destroy it. Not even one single person in this earth can destroy that, that things called I LOVE YOU KA. So remember that. When i say i love you, i mean it. Thank you for everything’s. Everything ka. Let’s do it everything’s together in the future "

im happy whenever i read this :) it make me calm. i wont forget it. i will hold on to this and trust you. im sorry for what i did wrong. im sorry. 

this is shocking

i know how to control myself whenever im with you . when i say i love you , i really mean it dude . thanks for being such a great great great person IA. 

the flow

i will go with the flow and watch every single step that you take and see how its end up

Not again

In a way, everything is seemed so unfamiliar now. I feel different. I miss you, you, you, us and all. I am not being too sensitive or anything. It’s just, I don’t know  L Swear to god, I DONT LIKE THIS. Guess I have to learn on how to be independent without anyone. I can’t count on people. I can’t expect anyone to be with me or comfort me whenever I feel down. Dear people, I am not being so childish, I’m trying hard to ignore everything and holding back my tears. BUT I JUST CAN’T KEEP PRETENDING. Try to put yourself in my situation then you’ll know. Thank you for all this while people. I am sorry for everything. korang dah sangat different in a way.

i can do it

Its okay ka. Sikit lagi. Just bear with it. Don’t let it control your emotion. I know you can do it. ignore what are they gonna say about you. you don’t live to pleased them as well. They don’t deserve to be part of your life or even your friends. Listen, you’re the one who decide your future. Not them.  maybe there’s no luck for you this time, but sooner or later who knows. Don’t give up ka. Everything happens for a reason. Just keep believe in that and everything will be alright for you. There’s nothing wrong about being sad or lonely. Onething, promise that its only for a moment! GOODLUCK IN FACING YOUR WORLD LIFE.

Her story

She smile and laughed, she’s trying her best to pleased them, she’s giving advice, she surrounded by a lot of people, she’s acting bold and strong, she’s keeping everything in her hearts, deep down she’s a loner, she easily cried, she’s not happy, she gave up, she can’t handle her own problems, she’s tired, she’s no one, and she just don’t know till when. She is weird indeed.

love, this is for u

i trust you and i love you ! im sory for letting you down. let us just be happy okay sayang !

-zulaikha

to keep you calm

dear niknurulshahirahniksaffian, i read yours. and honestly sumpah ka faham apa yang awak rasa.

im sorry for not being with you there and to not listen most of your problem or anything. listen here, we cant always be free without being sad, pathetic, a loner, or whatever. sometimes, we just feels like crying without any valid reason. am i right? there's nothing wrong about feeling that way wa. im going through the same thing in melaka. nangis sorang sorang like all the time, rasa alone, give up, rindu family and awak, and dengan study nya lagi. kan? i dont know what else should i say wa. kadang kadang ka harap awak ada dengan ka. kadang kadang ka rasa ka banyak sangat problem. bila stress and so all. bila rasa loser. bila ramai haters. dengan orang yang cakap buruknya. kan? sumpah sedih. ka bukan nak cerita pasal ka, tapi ka nak wa tau yang wa much better. trust me. takde orang nak ajak wa jadi musuh kan? cakap belakang? buat cerita and so all. ka ada. deep down rasa lemah sangat. 

wa, ka bersyukur sangat sebab dapat awak as bestfriend. kita dah sangat lama together kan. awak sebahagian dari diri ka. percaya tak? dulu, ka akan nangis bila awak tak datang sekolah. serious ka ingat lagi. ka tak suka keluar dengan yang lain without wa. kan? ka happy, ka bertuah, and ka the chosen one sebab dapat awak. i might sound so lesbo but its the truth. i loveee you sangat sangat :) 

just dont let yourself down wa. u hav to be strong there. take it as a challenge. nanti semua ni akan jadi experience awak. apa pun yang awak rasa, ingat yang ka always ada dengan awak. okay!

SARANGHAE!

i dont know

is it okay to keep pretending ?

fact

People come and go. Come to think of it, I had enough. This is so unbearable L I don’t want to lose any of youu. Can’t you guys just stay? I love you guys so much. Yes, it is you, you, you and you. We live together, we laugh, we share and we do every single thing together. we even create a lot of good memories But then, we separate and live our own life. Years later, everything will be forgotten. Right? *sigh L Sometimes, I do hate pictures because it will reminds me of everything and the worst part is, it’s just left as a memory which will bring a tears to me.

And to be stick together is impossible. thats life. this entry is for my beloved people around me. you know who you are. I LOVE YOU PEOPLE

finally !

exam dah habis ! heeee :) 

so

home !

here i come ! yesyesyes!

happy

excited

and

omg

but 

still

im gonna miss you guys a lot !

wawatip, bilala, yuiyuin, fann, danial haikal, mmu crowd, dilala and and, you know who you are! haha

tapi yang paling penting sekali 

IZHAM AZIZI, pls take care ! u ada i dalam life u sekarang :)

so pls behave eventho im not around

promise okay! i'll do the same !

take care people ! HEEE

-xoxo, gssp girl

a thought

Hmmh, i’ve been thnking this fr a while. And its really dig my heart out. Wht else to say, there is one more semester to go then we’re done. Its not like im being too emotional or what. Its just, durr! I akan hilang you ke haa?

Dear awathif,

We’ve been together in here since we’re in semester one. There’s a lot of things happned in here whether its a pleased memory or bad. Banyak benda yang jadi dekat kita. Thank you for always being with me. Whatever it is, you are one of my best best best super love girlfriend. I cant afford to lose you babe. Seriously. I just cant imagine my life without you here J

Ingat tak,

Kita pernah gaduh sikit. Yeke gaduh? Alahh, masing masing ego kan. Haha! Sorry if banyak buat you kecik hati or whatsoever taw. Sorry sangat. Sorry for everythg. You faham apa maksud i kan. Bila i ada problem, i sakit, i lebam lebam badan semua, lapar, menangis or anything. U akan selalu dengan i. J thanks for that. 

Well, i dnt knw why, but i just feel like writing. Hmmh, terlalu banyak benda yang dah jadi for this past 2 years. Ya allah, tak sngka sangat.

·         Dengan kisah backstabber nya

·         Kisah kena tuduh lesbo

·         Kisah i dengan A

·         Dengan Eqa

·         Cerita you pulak

·         Our study

·         Demam demam

·         Jatuh jatuh

·         Lebam lebam

·         Gossip gossip

·         Emotional moment

·         Crazyyyyyyy pighead

·         Orang yang dengki mendengki

·         Touching lebih

·         Haihh, macam macam

·         Dengan macam macam jenis orang yang singgah dalam our life lagi!

·         And manyyyyyyy moreeee J

Haha! yes, we both know this isn’t it. advise i, be tough girl. Sooner or later, i takkan ada dengan u untuk comfort u bila u ada problem, demam or what. memang akan ada ramai orang yang akan buat kita down, but please. Bear with it. its just a process to be a mature sophisticated human. 

Im not a perfect bestgirlfriend for u L sorry for my incomplete and  my rudeness towards you. Lets just do our best for the last semester! I love youuuu!

recite me a yasin pls

Im dying with my papers L

DAMN !

how could U**M can being so mean to us

no gap at all?

this is too much for our course !

geram gila !

thank you !

take time

sorry fr not updating anythg . im busy with my final . still, there's a lot to write about ! soon maybe :)

dedicated to Izham Azizi

-xoxo

just so you knw, im serious about liking you

i hope i cross your mind once in a while 

just so that i wont feel pathetic for thinking of you all the time :)

IA

i wanna make you mine !

OMG AGAIN!

long lasted drugs ?

OMG !

and

ahha! OMG !

awwwwhhh !

finally IA, you've said it!

thank you ! 

and now ?

im MELTING again ! HAHA

awathif baharin

cepat lah sihat pls :'(

tak tahan tengok orang yang i sayang sakit

sigh

im going to hav a fever i thnk. AGAIN. hmmh aaaa!

(padahal badan dah panas. pening pun bole tahan jugak)

i got lot of work to settle. which semua nya penting gilaa

awathif dah demam :') sumpah risau gila nak mati ! 

(you, be well cepat okay. i akan cuba jaga u macam ur mum buat)

sedih aa macam ni. tak tau kenapa. hmmh

wait! awathif baru decide nak makan meehun tomyam! awwh, thanks sayang! at least u makan!

kitorang pergi beli ehh. heee

nabila, you pun dah demam kan? atuk you akan okay. insayaallah ehh

thanks for everything taw :) hmmh, segan kita nak cakap kat sini. awww! hee

yui, lama nya tak jumpa u kan. haihhh. i miss you in a way. i tau u banyak problem.

tapi pls jgn simpan sorang. be happy and im always available for you. okayyy :)

and lastly, kihkihkih! 

dear someone that i like, eikk? haha. btw, sorry if lepas ni i jarang online okay. 

( feels like informing you. i dnt know why. hee)

everytime ingat you mesti i senyum macam orang gilaa. hahaaa.

i suka u lah. badly. i think. HAHA! maluu nyaaa. tapi, iye kot.

risau jugak i bila feeling lebih lebih ni datang.

still, thanks IA. 

so lepas ni, pls la ingat sikit dekat orang yang keep :

freeze you. haha

bang you

like you

remember you

miss you

and

keep smiling for you :D !

do text me at least once i a day pls pls pls.

i admit everytime i dapat your text, i akan senyum and happy sangat. HAHA!

AAAAA zulaikhaaa! segann nyaaa :)

-bye love

its already friday

last night tidur lambat, but still . tidur dengan hati yang berbunga. eik? HAHA

gilaa lama dow tak rasa feeling feeling ni. euww. okay, lets just forget about it sebab biar ika je yg faham okay.

bangun lambat. terskip class LAW. im sorry Puan Aliyah, saya tak sengaja. niat pun takde.

and and, time tidur kaki ika CRAMP which sakit dia macam kena hempap dengan batu bata!

SAKIT GILA OKAY! and and, it happned TWICE! what the fuckk! 

sampai hati najanabila tak bangun walaupun i jerit2 mintak tolong. eee jahat! (pls laa serba slah ye nabila)

then bangun bangun terus rush mandi, but still , macam ada satu perkara yang asyik teringat ingat.

not to mention it over and over again. its just, HAHA! biar lah sementara saat saat rasa macam ni EXIST! 

its his birthday. i wish i can do somethg for him. sorry :(

thank you for this awesome cool feeling abe. kaaa enough! HAHA.

now we proceed with my day, then terus pergi class sambil text agar agar :

zulaikha : korg kat class ke? shit i lmbt

gar : Eh tk lah. kitorg kat DP (dataran pahlawan) . HAHA. masuk je. dia tak masuk lagi.

zulaikha : ok ok. haha

gar : Eh dia dah masuk , hee tp takpe, kitorg tgk vid je

zulaikha : cakap kat dia mariah carey lambat sket eh. otw ni

okay thats all. wth? omg ika. LAME! motif cerita bout this pls? 

 yelah yelah, sebabnyaaa kan, HAHAHA! ka nak show off effort ika untuk ke class. bukan selalu kan. peewit! orite, lepas tu pergi print assignment and submit. then balik bilik nabila ajak balik rawang which rasa macam akan ikut and esok baru balik seremban :) ikaaa ikaaaa. hmmh. 

contact mama pun tak dapat. haihh mama, mana la mama ni. - ignore

still, there's something weird about today. i miss you and this is for you :

- you memang dah annoyed gila dengan i ke? u memang dah rasa benci i ke? sorry for everythg. u knw wht,  i just nothing without u being my shadow :'( take care and im sorry. i tak rasa u perlu kan i lagi. 

I LOVE HER . no. I LOVE YOU

-is this a love letter? OMG

okay, this is wow

thank you thank you thank you ! 

sepatutnya memang takde siapa yang akan baca blog entah apa apa ni. but since i know that u akan baca! cewahh! eikk!

 HAHAHAHA! 

so, i pun. uhmm. ngaaa. malu lah. thanks. i dont mind about being fool. i like you and thank you for liking me back. its such a wonderful feeling and i mean it. im so lucky i guess. HAHA! byee gilaaa

-i feel great

zulaikha sakit?

HAHAHA !

aah, sakit sangat. semua sakit. physical? mental? 

yang pelik nya kenapa tak elok elok?

maybe for this time being je kot kan . hopefully!

semoga sihat eh kaa.

he used to be mine

i watch him go

with a surge of that well known sadnes

the feeling that im loosing him forever

and without really entering his world

im glad that whenever i can share his laughter

i let precious time go by

then when he's gone

there's that odd melancholy feeling

and a sense of guilt that i cant deny

what happened to those wonderful adventures

the places that i planned for us to go

well some of that we did

but most we didnt

and why i just, dont know

sometimes i wish that could freeze the picture and save it from the funny tricks of time

and now he's leave :(

-this is how i felt now

wht to update?

HAHA! i pun tak tauu lah. tapi, taknak lah kosong je kan. plus, blog ni macam satu satu nya tempat boleh luah kan perasaan dengan free nya. well, okay. my weekend? how was it? hummmmmh, HAHAHA!

i met him! yes yes yes. him! orang yang boleh buat mood ika jadi happy! a guy that i like! who? haha! ssshhh. its a secret that i'll never tell. xoxo, gssp girl! 

so apa lagi? banyak jugak benda jadi dow. AND its fucking annoying! malas lah nak cerita pasal tu kan. tapi, ada something yang nak share together ni :) heee

okay, ka jumpa ramai orang, ka lepak dengan ramai crowd baru, ka ada problem yang banyak, ka gila, jahat and annoying. tak semua orang bercakap baik pasal ika. siapa kisah? ika tak pun. haha. tapi, sedih sikit tu memang la ada kan. since the last time, ika dah banyak sangat berubah. fr good or bad? :'(

how i wish i can turn this life back. kan kan kan? why do people come and go. in a way, still, i miss someone badly. okay, dah hilang mood nak tulis. fine. later --

-adzulaikha

omg !

i rasa i suka u lah. i rasa i dah lama tak rasa macam ni since the last time. okay, except just suka macam main main je. tapi kali ni, OMG! im serious lah. takut nya. eee .

usually, ika akan hilang orang yang ika suka. macam mana ni? and this is a fact of my life since dulu dulu lagi. boleh tak orang yang saya suka ni suka kat saya balik? haha! WTH! adoi!

but trust me, orang yang buat saya nervous ni akan hilang jugak soon. hmmmhh.

xoxo, gssip girl

why now ?

okay, the reason why i started to do blog again? why why why and why? oh my, seriously! i dont even know why. pfft maybe its because of my surrounding? my bestfriend? niknurulshahirahniksaffian? saya suka tengok blog awak lah! or maybe because of this little girl nurnabilajaafar? yang tiap masa nak meng update blog. well, its quite complicated man. my life can be so funny at times. funny? naaa! not really. so okay, truth to be told,  im just so desperate to write out everything inside of me. but how? well, im trying here. cant you see it mannn! ughh. so, im not going to post anything yet, except this obviously. ahha! welcome ika! haha tah apa apa lah kau ika